Iam a fight

Hi my name is Kassonah Smallwood and on July 4,2010 I find out that I had lupus it been hard for me I been in and out the hospital for a year. I did not now I was that sick but I kno I was sick when they told me that I had lupus I thou I was going to died and I said to my self do god love me what did I do to you god to get this I want to gave up but I did not I'am still fight I want to cry sometime but I real own cry two time one time when I got a pacemake and when I find out that I had lupus.When you sick you find out who your real friends is. Sometime I hurt but I dont say noting becoues I dont like whan everbody look at n me and make me feel bad about my self and then ther make me cry. I feel like I'am all by my self in the world I just need somebody to huge me and say Iam here for you and I love you. My hair come out and I wear a lot of wigs I dont like the way I look sometime.My gandma say bad things about me like she say I'am going to died she is so mean to me I keep ask my mother to take me away from here one day she going to come here and I'am going to run away from this family and never come back again god I need your help because I'am real ready to go away made of I died everbody will be happy.