Lupus awareness

Why me

Sometime I just want to dead the pain is so bad this lupus take over me. God help me please I'am a fight but sometime I just can't fight I get so weak sometime into I pick up my head god please help me please please please I don't want to give up but I hurt and weak every day

I know god hear me

This past month this lupus be act up I was in the hospital and in so much pain I call on god and told him I can't take it no more can he take my pain away I did not mean it but sometime I get tired of the pain it hurt so bad I could not wash up cook for my self.....I just want my life back

Lupus awareness

Do lupus make me mean or do the medications

My family say I'am mean but I don't think I'am mean they just don't understand how I feel sometime I just want to be alone. I love my family and my bay he never went no were 7 years and we still going hard I have 3 girl friends the over friends I had never come to see me I guess you find out who your real friends is when you get sick or need something. I just start thing about my life and I guess the over side of me come out sometime the mean one come out but I will like to tell my family and my real friends I'am sorry.

I love my mom

I love my mom so much...I don't know what I will do with out her she all ways there for me and help me out when I need her 

Wow

I have not been on here in a long time but my lupus sister Sasha was talking about a blog that we should do to get more lupus awareness out there and let people know how lupus effect us. My life been hard because of lupus but I try sometime not to let the pain get to me but lately I been in so much pain into I just want to cry sometime I just stay in my apartment by my self my family say I'am mean but they don't understand how I feel and how much pain I be in I can't walk that good no more I can't do my hair no more it hurt cause I love doing hair I want to school for hair and sometime I ask god why me what did I do so bad to have lupus but I love my lupus sister that I'am in the support group with and I love my online lupus sister and brother I don't know what I would have done with out them they understand how I feel. I'am going to try my best to wight everyday on here but good night it is 2am I should be sleep 🙏💜💜💜💜💜🙏