Thank God!!!!!

God is good becaues a year ago I was in and out the hospital. Iam get better now it been hard but I'am a fight this pacemake and lupus will not stop me at all. My family say I'am mean but I'am not they just dont understand what I'am going thou sometime I feel so sick into I dont want to get out of bed I just dont say noting they just dont now how I feel I just want my life back it hard fight this lupus I need my own apartment so bad dont like live here I dont want nobody to feel bad becoues I dont want to live with them but I got to go this damn lupus stop my life I will have been in my own apartment but I cant work right now I'am not going to say never because you never now what god can do but I got money come in from social security so thats good. I dont now why sometime I dont like my family but I be fight it, it so hard god help me why do I feel this way I just go in my room and dont talk to nobody thery ask me why I'am in my room and I say becoues I just need to be by myself  sometime god for gave me I dont know why I feel like this. God help me get my own apartment just to get away from them maybe of I get away I will feel better about them but I love my family they is there for me I just mad with the world right now. Thank you god.